Monthly Archives: May 2014

Future thoughts

End of life issues. That is probably something most of us don’t think about very often unless we are in that stage of life either caring for an elderly parent or maybe being the elderly individual. For me, I am in what feels like my second childhood or maybe second teenagerhood. I’m living la vida muy bueno! Having more free time now that my children are getting older, discovered the fantastic joys of running, my body looks and feels better than ever, what more can I ask for? Well, for these days to last as long as possible for one thing! I will be 50 this year and I know that with age often comes health problems, life changes, grief at loss of family and friends even older than us, children leaving the nest and maybe not turning out the way you want, etc. As a Christian  who trusts that my life is in God’s hands and a person who generally doesn’t look too far into the future, I really have no 5 year or 10 year or 20 year plan. We have no IRA, no savings, truly no plan!! Our plan is that we hope at least one of our five sons will make enough money to take us in if we can no longer survive.

This is on my mind because why?,  you ask. Well, I’ve been visiting my 89 yr old father in law in the nursing home where he was moved a few months ago. I can tell he is not very happy there, but he does get pretty good care overall. He’s just bored , lonely, can’t see well enough to watch TV anymore, has lost his memory for the most part, can’t get out of bed, has a catheter and bag, wears diapers, you get the picture. He can talk but he doesn’t seem to want to chat much. I wish I knew how to bring him some sunshine and joy. I brought him cookies today and he actually said “these are good’. That’s a long sentence for him these days. I love him and it’s so hard to see him like this.

My own mother is mid 70s and still works full time and goes to casinos and is in amazing health. But we all know that life can change on a dime. I pray that she stays well until the Lord takes her in her sleep, many years from now. My health is good, but my husband has had some minor issues already. I can’t help but start to think of the future and the possibility of various scenarios. He is the only one working. I don’t even qualify for Social Security since I have been a stay home mom for 23 years and only worked part-time before that. With the current changes in our government and economy, if I think about the future too much, I might have a panic attack!  Guess I’ll go back to my happy place and keep trusting God.

God bless Grandpa

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Confusing and, for many, annoying

http://fatburningman.com/dr-joel-fuhrman-on-being-a-nutritarian

Abel James’ latest podcast bashing Paleo has many upset with him for not standing up for what he says he believes and lives by. I must agree that I felt confused and a bit irritated that he did not ask the guest more questions or point out how Paleo and gluten free diets have worked well for many people and even healed some of various conditions. I will continue to eat the way that makes me feel good. For now, this is gluten free, grain free, dairy free and with plenty of good fats and protein.

Something’s happening here, what it is ain’t exactly clear

I’ve been wanting to blog something, but my thoughts have been too jumbled. I’ve had some great experiences over the past few weeks, mainly race experiences. I wrote about one of them, Hell’s Hills 25K trail race. I didn’t write about the next 25k, Brazos Bend,  because although I enjoyed it  and did well overall, it left me injured and pretty discouraged. Actually, I probably had no business running it in the first place because my right leg wasn’t right. It’s so colicky! Always with the IT band and tight hamstrings! What the?? Long story short, I have a slight curvature of the spine that affects my pelvis that affects my leg when I run. But back to the race. My husband and friend decided to join the fun. Hubby did so well at his first ever 10K and first ever trail race and had such a good time that it helped me get through the extremely painful, unable to walk, get me some ice!  post-race period. You can’t tell in this picture how bad I was hurting but I was limping for two days.  My friend did her first ever trail 25K in 2:12, not too shabby! She’s awesome like that. Oh, by the way, that’s not a boo-boo on my hubby’s right leg, its a huge scar from many surgeries. So I think it’s extra special that he is out there running. 

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My buddy found me some ice and here I am smiling through the pain. I have to say this race left the three of us with mostly good memories and we all talked about it for a week! We will do it again next year, maybe a longer distance. This park, Brazos Bend State Park was very nice and also full of wildlife and birds. Alligators everywhere! Weather was nice, overcast and not too hot. My biggest complaint was a long section of trail that had been used by horses and was difficult to navigate due to the hoof prints.

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So , anyway, everyone said, okay the race is over, now rest and recover. I was attempting to do that when I hurt my back swinging a light kettlebell which is evidently a common way to injure your lower back. Never again! This threw me for a loop emotionally. First my leg, now my back?! I have three marathons to run in the Fall and Winter!  It hurt bad enough to scare me into not running. I lasted about 5 days. It started to feel less painful, so I just had to try it and I was able to run! Thank you God! This was awesome. My life was not over. I would not have to resort to other means to stay sane.

But during those 5 days without running, I did a lot of thinking. Not the happy kind. I pondered whether running is too important to me. I asked myself if it was an idol in my life competing with God for my worship. Did I spend too much time running and not enough with my family? Answers were not clear but that’s a good thing sometimes. I didn’t get a resounding, yes, running is your idol! But I did see that I was spending more time with my kids since I wasn’t running. This week alone I have taken my sons for three casual nature walks! I’ve also spent more time on homeschooling and housework and catching up around the house on tasks in the past couple weeks of rest and recovery. So maybe God knocked me down so I could realign my priorities? Running is still a priority but I have enjoyed the extra time. My family probably would like it if I was more focused on them.  This will be a light training month anyway because I will start training for my October marathon in June. Today I was able to run 3 road miles at 8:50 average pace. I feel good about that since I have only run a few times in the past couple of weeks. I have ridden my bike several times and I plan to keep that up as cross-training is good for me and I like it!

Next race will be a 5k road race. Hoping for a PR if I can get enough running in by then. My current PR is 27:40. I am pretty sure I can beat that at least by a few seconds or maybe even more…as long as nothing else happens!

Happy Running, God bless you and Yall come back now, ya hear!

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